Never a dull moment

So my oldest son, Jordan, just turned 7 Feb 24th. A day before his birthday i took him and Zane to McDonald's to play. He always climbs on the outside of the railing going down the stairs into play land. At the bottom of the stairs is a metal bench. Somehow he slipped in between the rail and the metal bench, it is such a small space i really am not sure how he did it. He was so stuck and it took 2o min to get him out. I helped an employee take apart the bench. He was very sore, bruised and embarrassed but i don't think he will be doing that again anytime soon. At least he can honestly say "I did that when i was 6 Mom" :) Such a long time ago :) We went back there a couple days later and Zane and Ethan (17month old nephew), who witnessed the whole thing, are inspecting the bench and "talking" to each other. They were very focused for quite some time trying to figure out how to get the screws on the side of the bench undone. They gave up after a while and went off to play... kids are so cute :)

Curlyheaded soap eater

Zane is just one of those kids...EVERYTHING goes in his mouth. Jordan,my oldest son, wasn't like that at all. You could set him in a room full of Polly pockets, pennies and jelly beans and he would just pick them up study them and figure out where he could put them. Well that wasn't always good either i suppose. Jordan once took a penny and tried to stick in a light socket. I just happened to have a Glade plug-in in the outlet so he ended up dropping the penny behind the plug-in that was half pulled out from the wall. There was a big flash of light and it blew the breaker, not before burning the light socket black! He sat there wide eyed! I would like to say it scared him but he just sat there and said "OH WOOOW" like it was fourth of July and i should be proud. Sadly i had to give him a good whooping for fear he thought it was so cool he would do it again.

Zane on the other hand thinks the world is his ice cream cone. Everything must be licked or if its small enough put into his mouth. Which is what he is doing in the picture. Jordan got some candy for Valentines day so Zane had to taste the container.:) So yesterday it was the dish soap container. He got one out of the trash and tipped it back and took a swig(it was mixed with water). There was bubbles on his face and everything. He made a strange face and shrugged. I was horrified so of course he thought that meant it was a joke and he needed to run off with the bottle while attempting to do it again. Hours later he was getting into things under my moms kitchen sink while i was trying to help Jordan with his Science project. I turn around and he is making a awful face and trying to wipe his tongue off. It scared me since there is more than just soap down there! Since he cant tell me what he just ate i did something only a mother would do. I swabbed his mouth with my finger....and tasted it. :( I felt like i was a kid again getting soap put in my mouth for talking back. I was thankful that was all it was and i think that time he learned his lesson. He was asking for water and burping a lot for the next 15 min. and every time he looked over at the sink he shook his head while wiping his tongue and saying "no no no".

Lattes, eyebrow waxing, and the smell of my sisters shirt

Yes the title is strange:) So my life has felt these last couple weeks but these three things were my most comforting moments. (that and cuddling with my husband but he knows that already ;)

My sister Ti flew down from Alaska to be with us last week. She brought with her clothes for me. Strange the things that stick in your head. Like the clothes you were wearing when tragedy struck and now you just want to burn them. My beautiful sister has been through to much in her life but it all lead her to understand just what i would need. What she doesn't know is one of the shirts from her i only wear just to smell it.:) Call me crazy but i love my sister and somehow smelling that shirt makes me feel she is just a little bit closer. I love you Ti. You are amazing! Thank you for being there when i needed you most and didn't even know it.

Below is a link to her blog. Beautiful words she wrote for and about Zane:

http://titaniumpersonaltraining.blogspot.com/p/zanes-story.html

Children are a treasure

Waking up Sunday morning i never would have dreamed that i would be facing the possible death of my youngest son. It was just a normal Sunday, our family day!









That day God heard so many peoples prayers for our son!





As i witnessed my tiny son being run over i thought his time had come. (Most dogs his size bleed out internally within minutes after something like that.)



Zane hadn't taken a breath as my husband, Nate scooped him up from under the car tire and sped off for the hospital. I ran into the house completely dazed to get Jordan, our almost 7yr old son. I tried to stay calm but it was no use! I lost it! Jordan was amazing, he was in the car without a shoe before i could say another thing! On the way to the hospital I felt a strange calm, right before begging God to spare my son, I gave him to God. At that moment i realized the truth in the fact that our children are not our own! We are all His and everyone eventually will have served their time on earth and go "Home". Though i couldn't understand how it could be his time already at 17months old! Entering the hospital i heard the most beautiful noise I've heard...Crying!! He was alive! For how long no one was sure. The doctors were hovered over him and from the looks of Zane he seemed to have a broken collar bone, and leg and there was blood in the back of his throat . His face was covered in scrapes and was swelling rapidly. His mouth was greenish blue and his lips were swollen. The doctors felt he was damaged internally very badly. Given how badly his blood was oxidizing and how high his enzyme levels were they were sure he had lacerations to his liver and pancreas. The X-rays showed 5 broken ribs and a punctured lung with extensive bruising to the lungs, liver and pancreas. They weren't sure of his spinal condition or the extent of his neck injury. He had a strange bruising pattern on his neck as well. It didn't take long before they were shipping him off to Harbor View Med Center in Seattle. Being without Nate or I made it so much harder for him. I told the nurse to sing to him his favorite song and we were all thankful that he "calmed down" as long as he was being sung to. (He loves to laugh and smile at people he doesn't know but if you touch him its a whole different story...needless to say he was Very unhappy even while sedated) We reached the hospital three hours later. (the longest ride of our life!) When we got to the hospital Zanes face had already started to heal and no longer looked bruised and swollen. There was a surgical team standing by. He was getting more CT scans and x-rays as the doctors were sure they must be missing something. X-ray ed and scanned over and over and nothing. Still holding our breaths and praying harder than ever...at 9:30pm they gave the all clear to move him into the ICU and said it looked like he was going to make it. We made it to his room, all the while he is screaming from pain and the fact that i wasn't picking him up. But i wasn't to pick him up because they still hadn't cleared his neck to make sure there was no damage. We got to the room and he gets still just long enough for the nurses to release their hold on him. He rolled over so fast jumped up and ran across that bed so fast and literally jumped into my arms! One of the nurses : "Well i guess he just cleared his neck for us" :) that night was one of the longest nights ever. Just waiting and praying. By 3 am he refused to sleep unless he was in my arms. It was such a relief to hold him! By morning they had taken more blood, run more test and were really starting to question "what really happened to this child" His lungs,liver and pancreas were healing and the air pocket from the puncture was dissolving. His enzyme levels were almost normal. By Monday late afternoon Zane decided he had had enough of laying around and wanted up. The nurse got out the toys and before we knew it he was getting in and out of a Little Tikes car. From looking at him all he had was a few scratches on his face. By Tuesday morning the doctor came in to say he could go home that day and said "well, maybe he only go hit by the bumper?" Nate was ready to tell him he could come lay in the driveway and he would show him what happened....


So Zane is home healing beautifully! The images from that day will stick with us forever but the power and love of God is evident and overcomes all fear! I don't know why God chose to save our son, but i am enormously grateful! I look towards the future with hope and excitement! For what God has planned only He knows! Thank you everyone for your prayers! You were heard :) and for His glory alone Zane was saved!

Gods Gracious Gift

The meaning of the name Zane: Gods Gracious Gift

My 17 month old son, Zane, was run over by our family car on Sunday, January 31st. He was medevaced to Harbor View Medical Center in Seattle. We didnt know if he was going to make it but since there was no room in the chopper my husband and i had to drive 3 hours to get there. I kept hearing this song on the radio. It wasnt until this morning that i fully listened to it...and cried. That and the song "Oh How He Loves Us" By David Chowder

Zanes story will be here shortly...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7elxC8LXfzE

"What Faith Can Do"
By Kutless

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That’s what faith can do)
When the world says you can’t
It’ll tell you that you can!

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise